I’m on a journey.  No, not a cruise or a conference this time.  This is a different type of journey – there aren’t any boarding passes for me to lose or hotel keys to misplace.  This is a very personal journey about some of my junk. 

Junk that I need to GET OUT of my life.  Junk that is cluttering up my vision and distracting me from life in Jesus – from ABUNDANT life in Jesus.

Today I was reading through a book/ bible study I’m using on this journey and this question hit me:

Are you praying for God to remove this from your life?


Am I?  No.  I’m not.  I like it here in this comfortable place.  I don’t want to be uncomfortable.  I don’t want to do a NEW thing, I’m just going to be okay with this thing. 

As long as I don’t pray, I can just tell myself it’s no big deal.

I don’t pray about it because to pray would be admitting there is  problem.  As long as I don’t admit it, I don’t have to face it, right? 

Wrong.  Sadly, very wrong and that’s why I’m walking this thing out today, right now, in the light. 

I’ve taken up a challenge to make a change.  This first thing that I have to change is my heart.  I have this for myself as much as I know the Lord (and these sweet friends) want it for me. I have to want it even when it’s hard and when I’m sad and when I’m hurting. 

I have to want to change before the Lord can change me. 

I’m not going to lie to you and tell you I want to all the time.  I want to sometimes – mostly when I stand on the scales or have to put on two pairs of Spanx (yes it’s doable) to wear the dress that was baggy last year.

So am I praying that the Lord will fix my ‘want to.’ 

I’m praying that tomorrow I will get up and want to do this thing.  But even if I don’t, I’ll still move forward and I’ll keep praying that that Lord will change my heart and make my ways more like His. 

After all, that is the plan.