Blog Post Number 457689

 At least that is what it feels like.  I've written at least eight blog posts  today – none of which I'm posting.  I just can't get a good feeling on any of them.  One is just too, too personal.  I mean I'm all about blogging about my life, but this was just too much.  And for those who are remotely curious about my life, it's about what God is calling me to give up – nothing more. 

 I wrote a blog about Post-it® notes and it will show up later, but not today.  I wrote about Bible studies, and Bible verses and who I am in Christ.  I even started a post about my dog, Max, but that will show up later, too.   I wrote and wrote and wrote, but I can't post any tonight.  I don't know why?  I just can't.  God is just pressing me to write on.  So, here I am blog friends (we need a new name for blog friends, don't we?  That's another post, too)   Looking for something to say that will be funny, but spiritually moving – now that's a tall order, isn't it? 

 I've been pondering the reason for  this blog.  Why do I do it?  Do I write this to entertain myself or others?  Considering that only a handful of people read it, then I  write mostly for me.  I hope it encourages or entertains someone, but I just write what God lays on my heart and leave it at that. 

 Tonight – it's been a struggle with what to write. I want to write something …. at least something slightly coherent.  I'm not even trying for humor or inspiration, just a blog that's not bad.  I didn't say I had lofty goals, just goals.  I've asked God, “what are we doing here, Lord?  Don't I have anything to say?”

 If you popped over here from the Internet Café – welcome! If you didn't know it, today I'm on the Internet Café so head over there and read one of my blogs that actually makes sense and isn't bad (after you finish this one and make a great comment, of course).  

I wrote about hope in that blog – a hope that is from Him.  And from this hope I find my joy and peace.  It's what I so desire in this life.  Once upon a time I wanted fame and fortune.  Fame really more than fortune. When I was young, I wanted to be a singer. I still do.  I can't sing..  I can hold a microphone, I can make all the faces and the motions, but I can't sing.  I gave up the singing dream, well, actually it's just on hold until I get to heaven and get that new voice to go with that new body.

 I started writing.  I decided that since I wouldn't be the great singer, I could be the great writer.   I would be the great author, the funny writer, and the well-loved scribe.  Now, I'm just thrilled to have a book coming out in the spring and I'm humbled that Thomas Nelson is publishing it.   Fame is no longer a driving desire in my life.  Do I want to be a well-known writer?  I would love to, but that's for the Lord to sort out for me.  I can't control that.  The joy in my life?  That's a given. 

These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full. (John 15:11)

 Joy is mine.  I can claim that.  I don't know what the future holds, but I know that I have Hope!  I have Joy and Peace.  And I have these because His word tells me I do. 

So here I'll close this unblog blog.  I pray that you claim the hope, joy and peace that is yours.