Over the last many months my friend and ministry partner, Melinda and I have been knee deep in this new ministry — gIRL (girlfriends In Real Life).
What started out as a way to just enjoy some fellowship with online friends and build bonds beyond the screen has morphed into a whole NEW THING. I'm a little scared…. okay, I'm in the place commonly referred to as TERRIFIED.
What started as a get-together ministry that I envisioned having cute name tags and darling tablescapes has moved far beyond that and it was not my doing. I'm not even going to blame this on Melinda. It's God. It's been so evident that He has plans for this and we are just a place of trusting Him.
I can do ‘get-together' — that is easy for me. I'm pretty good at it, too. I can rally the troops and plan the event, what I can't do is plan a gIRL gathering and this is where God has me — right, smack dab in the middle of something I CANNOT do!
I am not good at this. I don't know what's next. Where will we have this gathering? Which weekend? What will we study? The Bible! I got that one right, but I doubt we can study the whole, entire Bible in one weekend, so we have to narrow it down.
We find the perfect spot and it's too expensive or booked on every weekend we have available. It's overwhelming.
And then there's the ‘will they come' part…. what if no one comes? What happens then?
See, I told you — TERRIFIED.
Not my normal place to be. And I don't like it here.
Lord, why don't we just go back and make this a fun, girly fellowship-y thing. We'll have a blast and we'll praise Your Name — lots. We'll read the Bible and talk about You and everything. I promise. It'll be great. Just wait and see.
But He wants more. He wants it all.
I'm in the middle of I CAN'T and this is right where He can and He will.
His perfect Will is where I don't have to know the next step.
His perfect Will is where I don't have to know the date or the place.
His perfect Will is where no one has to show up.
In His perfect Will we will find the scripture or topic He wants us to focus on.
In His perfect Will we will find the peace that surpasses all understanding.
In His perfect Will we will walk worthy of He who has called us out of the darkness into His marvelous light. (1 Peter 2:9)
Doesn't mean I'm not TERRIFIED, I am — I'm just trusting God more than I'm trusting my own self. And that's a good thing.
Where is God calling you?
Are you in the middle of an I can't?
I am right in the middle of all of it with you… and gIRL.. HE surely can and will!
I love you!
D
You know, it is when we can’t that God does! I am right in that place- the journey He has placed me on right now is only because He can and does. To Him is the glory.
Someday you will look back and wonder why you were so afraid…:-)
ooohhh! my “i can’t” is moving…again. seriously, all my life has been a move. Here is the longest I’ve lived, where 75% of my children were born, where I’ve infested sooo much. I could get a little more than anxious when I think of what lies ahead. But trusting God is all I can do. And in so many ways he’s showed up already, going ahead of us, in our new rental house/living situation. Trusting he’ll finish it up all nice and pretty now. =)
love you,
rachel
Right there with you, my friend. I am believing He can and knowing He will!
I am more in the middle of “I can’t” than I ever imagined. My family has incurred a financial set back that we will be working on for the next 9 months…..we are doing our part and trusting in Him to help us get through this time. So, if you think about me, please pray for us and that God will help us make it through this time as we each spend extra time working jobs to get through this road block. Our faith is strong and we know God is good.
“I’m just trusting God more than I’m trusting my own self.”
As your ministry partner and fellow knee-knocker, that is INDEED a VERY GOOD THING!
He’s gonna do this work SOMEWHERE, and it’s going to be an “amazing” that only HE could create!!
Mary, my friend,
In His perfect will, He will bring people alongside of you who CAN. Other gIRLS will be right beside you–helping, loving, encouraging, and laughing our heads off with you.
Love you girlie,
Leah
I’m just trusting God more than I’m trusting my own self. And that’s a good thing.
Amen.
I’m in a blecky situation right now but I know that God is going to come out glorified above and beyond anything I can imagine. I’m believing Him and trusting Him.