I'm tired of me. Seems like I'm a constant work in progress. I'm always striving to be better at something or to learn a new something. I work to be a better communicator, a better writer, a better wife, mother and friend. I strive to get more organized and more efficient — and while I may have made some inroads, I'm just tired of me.
Not just any ol' tired, just sick and tired. It's just not all about me, all the time. I've studied and worked to be a better student of God's Word, a better follower of Jesus, and a more faithful believer. I have learned to be more transparent; I understand the need to memorize scripture and I know my life needs lots of Jesus in it — all the time. I also know that I could be more organized and I could procrastinate less. I've been working on me for years. I'm tired of it.
This is the year that is NOT about me! I'm not going to dig through God's Word just to find the right verse that fits my circumstances or, better yet, the verse that proves that I'm right and someone else is wrong. (I'm sure Jesus just loves it when I do that).
I think this year I'll just try not to get any worse. I'll try not to become more disorganized, I'll try not to procrastinate more and I'll try my best to just stay the same. I know, lofty goals.
I've decided that for this year I'll focus on Him. I'll read God's Word and look for glimpses into His glory. I'm going to spend this year looking at Him, instead of at me — much better use of time, I'm sure.
For this year, 2009, I'm on hold with the self-help, bettering myself mantra that seems to ooze through our society. Sure, I could be better in so many, many ways, but I think it's time to stop thinking about me all the time and start looking at Him. He is the God of the Universe. By His power all things were created
“He is the radiance of the glory of God and h the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power. After making purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high,” (Heb 1:3 ESV)
He upholds the universe by the word of His power! Whew! I believe this is worthy of my focus. I'm diving headfirst into getting to know Who God is — not that I'll ever really know, but through the power of the Holy Spirit I'm getting tiny glimpses of His glory and majesty! Oh, girl, this is one ride you don't want to miss!
So, if you're tired for the self help and ready to look outward for a while, join me on this journey to explore the God that we serve! It'll be one incredible adventure!!