I think there's a lesson in this title!
I'm NOT in the driver's seat of my life and I'm not in the driver's seat on this trip. When this posts, I'll be about halfway into my trip to New Orleans, heading to the taping of Breaking Free w/ Beth Moore.
I wanted to drive! I really did and I almost drove my vehicle.
I use the word vehicle because I drive a Buick Rendezvous, which is hard to spell and it's not a car, not a truck and technically not an SUV, so what do you say… I drove my Buick? Nope, sounds too …. well, a little older than I am. Do I say I drove my Rendezvous? Nope, who says that? Drove my car? wrong. Truck? wrong again. SUV? not hardly. So, let's stick with vehicle.
We had five of us traveling down in a Lincoln Navigator — big ol' SUV, but we also have lots of luggage. Women equal lots of luggage. So, I thought, I'll just drive my vehicle and then I'm in control! Right? wrong. I'm not in control, God is. I just like to sit in the driver's seat every once in a while. I usually get in a mess and God steps in to take the spot.
Today, I got a call from one of our ladies. She's sick and can't make it. That makes just four in the big SUV — so I'm going along with the group and I'm NOT driving. This is a big step for me — I know that sounds silly, but it's a really big step. I feel out of control and vulnerable, Is this my first step of Breaking Free?
I'm I supposed to Break Free from always wanting to be in control? Who Me? Never. Nope. Not me. I'm fine with NOT DRIVING, REALLY I'm Just great! Not panicked at all.
What happens if I want to stop and the others don't. What happens then? What about eat? What if I have to eat? NOW! What am I supposed to do if the others don't want to? Will I starve? Maybe I will. I hope not! Okay, I know I won't starve unless we plan on being in that car for over two months, and then I'll start getting a little hungry.
So, say a little prayer for me as I Break Free from my need to control everything. And pray for all those traveling to New Orleans today. Pray that we'll come with open hearts to hear what God has for us. Pray for our teacher, Beth Moore, and pray for all those working on the event. Pray that God is real to all this week. Pray that God uses Beth to reach out to those who are walking in bondage and to those who don't even know Him.
I'm off to finish packing. I can sleep tomorrow on the way – did I mention, I'm not driving so I can sleep.