I’ve decided to grab the bull by the horns and step out on the Made to Crave journey.

I’ll post weekly, but I may do it more often or I may just stick with weekly for 6 or 8 weeks.  Really who knows what will happen. I don’t know how long I’ll keep at it.  Just being honest.  I want to say I’ll post something weekly for the next six months… but then I’d get tired of talking about it and stop, so let’s just say I’ll post regularly for the next many weeks and we’ll see what happens.  (Do you want me to just shut up, because I want me to! Goodness at the crazy that is me)

I’m leading this study in my home church but if you don’t have a group to do this with, I encourage you to join Melissa Taylor for an online study – it’s amazing!

I’ve told y’all about being on the January 31st webcast, but I just read on Lysa TerKeurst’s blog that Made to Crave will be on the New York Times Bestseller List on January 23rd! WHOA!  I’m so thrilled for sweet Lysa and all her hard work.  I’m praising God for using such a humble spirit to bring this important and life changing message to us.  I’m also absolutely panic stricken!

I read that 20,000 people showed up for the first webcast – let me say that again 20,000!  Right now, I’m wondering if maybe they made a mistake in asking me… seriously, who am I other than a girl with a weight problem who loves Jesus with a passion.  That’s all.  That’s me.  Simple.

I keep telling myself it’s all good and it’ll just be me and Lysa talking about Made to Crave and how God is using it to make a difference in my life.  I’ll just talk about stuff with Lysa…. and 20,000 people will be listening in!  Whoa!

Okay, now, I’m not talking about that anymore!  Let’s move on before I pass out from the stress of thinking about this.

Weight has long been my issue.  I need to lose about 45 more pounds – and I say more because I’ve lost 10 pounds.  I wish it were more, but it is what it is.  It’s a journey.  My goal is to be at my goal weight by November 2011.  Seems like a long time off, but it will get here whether I lose the weight or not.

And it’s about so much more than weight.  It’s about my heart.  It’s about how I see food.  It’s my comfort and my joy.  It’s how I have fun and how I handle sadness or stress.  And this is all wrong.

I’m learning to change my ways, but it’s not easy.  I still love food, but I’m learning to lean more on God and less on the food.
I pray about my food issues.  I ask God to help me make good choices.  This may seem simple to you, but to pray means I agree that I need help and I cannot do this alone.  For years, I refuse to bring this before the Lord because that meant I had a problem and I couldn’t admit that!

I hope you’ll hang around for this journey.  Not promising any amazing weight loss numbers, slow & steady, but I do promise to be real with you.