Do you ever feel like you're beating your head against a closed door? I do. And the funny thing — I just taught on setting aside your wants for God's will.
Now, I'm living the lesson. Seems I have to live out every single thing I teach… maybe I ought to just teach the fun stuff and leave the hard stuff for other people.
Just when I think I'm slightly together, everything about me falls apart. And there I am, in pieces.
I WANT what I WANT! It's what I WANT to shout. And what I want is good. It's not bad. It's positive. It's fun. But it's not for me. The Lord has closed door after door. And here I stand pounding my fist shouting ‘I WANT THIS! Let me in!' Apparently, I am a slow learner.
So here I stand — packing up my wants, with tears running down my face. I don't want to walk away from this. It's been my desire for a long time. I KNOW it's time to step away, but I want so bad to stay.
I KNOW God's will is just beyond this want and I know I'll step into it as soon as I pack up this want. Knowing is one thing and doing is another. I'm REAL good at knowing. It's the doing that trips me up!
Are you packing up any wants today?